I'm unsure how to word this post because I'm still unsure it's the actual end. I know that over the last month(-ish), I've tried writing something dozens of times. I'd start something, get a little way in, then trash it. When I used to do that, I'd still have the urge to write and finish something. The last month, and especially the last couple weeks, I've felt... Nothing. No drive. No desire. Just a dismissive, 'Oh well...'
All that is to say that for the time being (possibly for good) I won't be writing any new captions or updating the blog. Maybe I'll get the itch and want to write again next month. Or maybe next year. Or maybe never... I don't know for certain. All I know is that if I keep trying to hammer stuff out in spite of a lack of desire, I'll just stress myself out. And after the most recent elections showed a hint of light in the darkness, I'd prefer to not put stress on myself.
So to all of you who reached out, all of you who've inspired me or been inspired yourself, and all of you who just casually read and enjoyed what I created, thank you. Seriously. A BIG thank you. As a person who has always thought they had a gift for something and squandered it (and still thinks that way often), it was a much needed catharsis. It got me writing other, non erotic adjacent, things. Maybe you'll end up reading those someday, albeit under a different author name.
Again, THANK YOU! Maybe I'll be back someday. If not, though, try to be the best person you can and enjoy life as much as possible...
-ER
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